There_and_Then

最近的思想处在暂时的搁浅期，找不到太多真正潜下心来想做的事情。报了个美术班学学素描，早晨去打球苦练球技，下午的时间大段大段的花在网络上球赛上音乐里，另一只耳朵偶尔竖竖，等着录取通知书的消息。新番和OP都已经错过很多了，却没有太好的心情和时间去补，更别说捞坑填坑了。大篇的日志也没有心情去写。早些时候定下的把米兰欧冠后几场的比赛下载下来的计划，也迟迟没实行。昨天把和同学一起弄的在乐趣的私坛装修好了，却不知道该写什么好。偶尔逛到某个同学的Blog，本来以为我很了解她，看过之后却发现她还有那么多事情从来没有提起。

好吧我最近才发现原来我是那么三心二意的家伙，尝试了一切却最终没有哪个真正投入，走了很多路却找不到一个立脚的支点。

其实以上的这些和这首歌并没有太大的关系。之前对Snow patrol没啥了解，Run是我最近偶然听到的，一遍一遍的重复，沉溺在那种带点儿迷幻的英式调调里。第一句就是I'll sing it one last time for you，关于短暂或者是长久别离的，很应现在的心情。

从西安回来的火车上看完了《在路上》，说实话并不适应那种杂乱的叙述方式，故事里的内容，爵士乐啊美国城市啊也都有不小的距离感。但我喜欢书里的概念，公路旅行，垮掉的一代，找不到的自我价值。我相信迪安身上真的有某种让人为之疯狂的特质，那种勇气无畏，那种任性狂热。结尾其实挺落寞的，让我想起了《猜火车》，连他最虔诚的追随者卡尔都放弃了疯狂开始过正常人的生活，到最后路上就只剩下迪安自己。

其实这些也和Run没啥关系，只不过副歌里一句And we'll run for our lives，让我想了很多。我们可以喜欢迪安崇拜迪安，但永远不会成为他。就好比我们每个人心底其实都有一些疯狂的种子被深埋着，偶尔在某个失落的时候开始躁动不安。但我们最终还是要把它掩埋，因为我们都是平常人。

我喜欢Snow patrol的调调，还有主唱总带点儿卷舌的唱腔。我喜欢Run，简单含蓄，深情动人。

Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

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Run

Band: Snow Patrol
Album: Final Straw

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anyway from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear