There_and_Then

重听X&Y的时候突然就注意到这首之前一直忽略着的歌。旋律很上口，潇潇洒洒的样子。不过歌词么，上来第一句便听得我一愣一愣的。

好吧以前并不是很喜欢Coldplay的词。第一张砖是以Yellow为代表的浅显风格，第二张玩深沉玩得有点不知所云。倒是X&Y均衡很多。大概是愣头愣脑如Chris Martin也终有长大的一天吧。我没有贬义......

这几天的生活节奏总算平缓下来，早晨去打球的时候看见补习班开课了，许多的人面色凝重的奔向小院，包括很多熟人。打完招呼猛地发现自己也跟着凝重起来。八月快来了，八月有我的生日——打包上路挥手向过去说再见的日子。

The hardest part was letting go,not taking part.

其实也没那么严重。我无比真诚的热爱假期，热爱脑袋枕着地眼睛看着天心里没有阴云只有憧憬的可爱假期，热爱那些排得满满的充实而无厘头的日子。只是，家乡的蓝天白云真的很不错，不知以后在北京看不看得到。

其实和这首歌一样，是在笑着说再见。

一直觉得Coldplay的音乐很性感的，英式里少有的性感。Chris就那么随着性子一唱，便让你的一个午后充满声音和思绪。

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The Hardest Part    ——Coldplay

And the hardest part
Was letting go, not taking part
Was the hardest part

And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining the cloud
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go, not taking part
You really broke my heart

And I tried to sing
But I couldn’t think of anything
And that was the hardest part

I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
You're silver lining the clouds
Oh and I
Oh and I
I wonder what it's all about
I wonder what it's all about

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do, it's just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Oh and it's the part
That's the hardest part
Yeah that's the hardest part
That's the hardest part
The Hardest Part
The Hardest Part

最近的思想处在暂时的搁浅期，找不到太多真正潜下心来想做的事情。报了个美术班学学素描，早晨去打球苦练球技，下午的时间大段大段的花在网络上球赛上音乐里，另一只耳朵偶尔竖竖，等着录取通知书的消息。新番和OP都已经错过很多了，却没有太好的心情和时间去补，更别说捞坑填坑了。大篇的日志也没有心情去写。早些时候定下的把米兰欧冠后几场的比赛下载下来的计划，也迟迟没实行。昨天把和同学一起弄的在乐趣的私坛装修好了，却不知道该写什么好。偶尔逛到某个同学的Blog，本来以为我很了解她，看过之后却发现她还有那么多事情从来没有提起。

好吧我最近才发现原来我是那么三心二意的家伙，尝试了一切却最终没有哪个真正投入，走了很多路却找不到一个立脚的支点。

其实以上的这些和这首歌并没有太大的关系。之前对Snow patrol没啥了解，Run是我最近偶然听到的，一遍一遍的重复，沉溺在那种带点儿迷幻的英式调调里。第一句就是I'll sing it one last time for you，关于短暂或者是长久别离的，很应现在的心情。

从西安回来的火车上看完了《在路上》，说实话并不适应那种杂乱的叙述方式，故事里的内容，爵士乐啊美国城市啊也都有不小的距离感。但我喜欢书里的概念，公路旅行，垮掉的一代，找不到的自我价值。我相信迪安身上真的有某种让人为之疯狂的特质，那种勇气无畏，那种任性狂热。结尾其实挺落寞的，让我想起了《猜火车》，连他最虔诚的追随者卡尔都放弃了疯狂开始过正常人的生活，到最后路上就只剩下迪安自己。

其实这些也和Run没啥关系，只不过副歌里一句And we'll run for our lives，让我想了很多。我们可以喜欢迪安崇拜迪安，但永远不会成为他。就好比我们每个人心底其实都有一些疯狂的种子被深埋着，偶尔在某个失落的时候开始躁动不安。但我们最终还是要把它掩埋，因为我们都是平常人。

我喜欢Snow patrol的调调，还有主唱总带点儿卷舌的唱腔。我喜欢Run，简单含蓄，深情动人。

Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

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Run

Band: Snow Patrol
Album: Final Straw

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anyway from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear